You pick the feathers from your flesh...
the more you pick the lighter you became
the start of an alluring human creation
falling down to expel your godly status for your selfishness
best describe as the greatest mistake you will ever make
so tear that flesh just because you cant stand it...
now the blood will start as the climax creeps up...
feathers stained red drift to the ground...
tears roll down your fair skin
as you look up from where you once belonged
fallen to the ground
huddled over you scream to say you have refused defeat
"im not fallen" is muttered thru miserable shrieks
"i dont need to be high to be angelic"
inside her.
so felt so beautiful.
in her picture perfect pose.
please dont move.
stay like that forever.
inside her..her warmth...
her insides against this fingers.
penetrated.
he was speechless
and it was intense
she was coming undone..
from the inside out.
no words from her,
she stayed perfectly still as he came.
and his fingers still played with her as it happened...
you felt great my lady he said
while leaving her.
and as they lie together in bed.
in the fluids gone astray
blood was prevlant
yes indeed...
he kissed her skin as he wiped the blade...
making love could never feel as good
pick the feathers from your flesh
the more you pick the lighter you become
a beautiful human you will become.
expel your godly status
best described as the greatest mistake you will ever make
so tear that flesh just because you cant stand it...
the blood will start when the climax creeps up...
feathers stained red fall to the ground...
tears fall down..as you look up...
tighten your grip..to keep tearing feathers
fallen to the ground
huddled over you scream to say you have refused defeat...
"im not fallen" screamed thru miserable shrieks
"i dont need to be high to be angelic"
everything scattered in a chaotic mess of your
She mistook the passing cars for shooting stars
Saw the amber moon slowly start to die
The effect of her tears made that night..
feel beautiful...
Holding her breath, waiting.
Could she face what had been done?
Could she face the eyes of everyone?
She had become the word she feared...
She was now her worst fear.
Her heart had become a cold steal trap.
She is only good on her back.
She was a night-time memory most would regret
Memories she wished she could forget...
This beautiful night
her graceful life...
whispering words for those who cared
"please, forget me not and always forgive...."
"always forgive...."
Okay…me and my obsession for change…
I used to have an extreme fear of the word forever…I mean how can you say forever and mean it without lying thru your teeth? You can't because forever is circumstantial. You will change, things and people and events and time will change. So, forever is nothing but a fleeting moment that you hope will last (but it won't).
And that makes me realize that is why I never have high hopes…because after seeing how much things can change in such a short period it is semi-pointless to hope for that one or two things to pull through and last just a little bit longer… (that is not to say I am hopeless…I have hope…th
the picture
on the wall
to hide the hole
the one from that fite
hopeless...cheating...whatever you said
you threw my favorite statue...
you were mad that you missed
the bathroom rug
is black
black wont show the stains
of blood
from when life was too much
long pants
never a skirt
the bruises are for me only
it shows you love me
right?
isn't that what im supposed to say
if someone were to see them on me when i change?
the music is on
real loud
it mask the silence
if they scream
i dont have to
please turn the volume up
the heat is off
why i dont know
if i had to give you an answer
and i know i
All alone
Under transcendence
with in four walls
Listening for a line of prayer
that we love to hear
Any cure for the silent and still
The windows can't stay clear
We hate to stare out
and let others in.
Pictures of suffering saints keep up the charade
of healing pain
The time has come to eat the flesh
to feed for a taste of your saviors death
Back to the pew to stand alone
Wait for the feeding to be thru
Your absolved of all those sins
Bow your head
to praise god
your not the one who is dead...
whispered hope has drawn out a fearless kind of pain
Worn down thru slipping time
Clouding my familiar state
Left with too much room to breathe
Old stitches start to break
Seeping in...
Decipt comes in again
The patterns of this well known verse have changed
To hold a different meaning
This cancer
Left uncovered
Its new grasp
Holds a new cross to bear
a hidden heart starts losing its fight not to feel...
surrendering quietly
afarid to stop that pain
that controls its every waking move
it gave in
and begged to die
by loves graceful hands..
just to see true beauty again..
pain that cut this torn heart
starts to heal..
beauty thru scars
becomes something more...
our love is a fite that has enough meaning
it would end a life with care..
it will sacrafice every exhale..
just...
to bleed out these empty thoughts
i uncovered a way for a look inside
saw a chance to stop the pain...
now memories that sunk in slowly fade..
im feeling now..
for the first time...
Overdone on your overdose
and those lies you always told...
Your passion heats you up
and kills me everday...
I hate this love just because
of the way it tears me down...
My beauty shown
through my black and blues
with cuts and a torn soul...
When you drift across my mind
i fall numb and void...
You turn me sour from the inside out...
Please my baby break me down,
make me kiss the ground....
Do it now....
Then love me forever
In that special way
like only you can do...
I'm home now...
Where I should be.
Back to this temptation of death.
Such a familiar feeling I've sought
Looked into all their faces
Came upon all their lies...
Tried to be them...so hard...
but...
I'm home again...
In the midst of this pain.
No longer aching to be a part of it..
I'd lie to you if I say I didn't miss it..
The suicidal pain of love
or lack there of...
How great this sharp knife in the heart feels
I'm coming home..
Finally.
I'm coming...
Smoke dispurses
Overpowering the air with dancing evil...
Watching as it fades away..
These faces take a hold of me.
The faces of them and all their venom...
fake happiness...and vacant stares..
Memories drip in..
as i swallow down this chemical dose...
Time for that void within..
Medication its called...
a supposed savior...
I wish it did something a little more..
Besides take me away to an empty land
Fake..
I'm fine til I see...
That I'm those faces...
Those empty words spoken daily
Touch with meaning that fades away...
I can't help it..
It's what I am fed...
medication....
I take it ...
and wait...
For new t
I heard your voice as I threw up..
That poision that dwells within.
Closed my eyes
Wiped my mouth clean of those fictious stories
That once coved this gore..
But won't dull the sounds of my ill-fated will anymore.
My time is running
and streets turn narrow..
My world is caving in
Someone come find me
While im seated here amongst the paper of this diry tile floor
hoping...
waiting
sitting here praying..
That I can keep up this act...
A poorly made fascade...
Mechanical lights fade the stars
and succeed in distracting us from what we are...
Failed lives come to pack the streets
All modren day marytrs..
Begging...and searching
For that something more
Holding tight
Keep with the crowd..
Try to avoid that empty sting..
Fade aways in a faceless crowd
All part of the landscape of a modern playground....
Buy up the tradegy
For ten bucks of more..
It's barren
and cold...
I fucking love new york...
Words that kill
and love to spread the evil that crawls in your blood..
Say it outloud to hurt us all..
It's out of you this way...
It makes you free start your recovery from this self caused pain..
Maybe if you push a little harder you won't feel a thing...
When the silence strikes...
and believe me it will...
You'll srill feel this pain you try so hard to give away...
If this is love
Maybe I am the one thats wrong...
Who knows enough to say...
Here is my wrist...
The vein to my heart..
It's out waiting for you to strike one more time..
Begging you to murder me...
with your loaded gun
Scrap that photo of yourself...
Collect things from other peoples lives
Keep those idols you will never be...
Look into the mirror thru you own eyes...see your inside...
Perfection Thru Distorted Eyes...
Beauty as it stands true..
Slipping through the ticks of time
All is wasted clipping from others lives
Cut them apart to take what rite...
But you've already lost...
Already gave up....
Nothing but a compromise.....
Such a beautiful
Self selected demise....
Triumphant beauty
Held high in is hands...
That which is real
and time and words can hardly justify...
Empty voids and untouched spaces
are only filled when we are in each other..
Chaos fades
The chatter dies...
Leaving room for bliss to rise...
nails sunk into skin
drawing out my blood supply...
mixing with these acid words
endless pain of memories past
soak into the ground below...
its become a new addiction
sparking my old afflictions..
pearched i sit.
a fading heart starts...
draining life from my crucified wrists
leaving behind the makings for beautiful scars....
Overdone on your overdose
and those lies you always told...
Your passion heats you up
and kills me everday...
I hate this love just because
of the way it tears me down...
My beauty shown
through my black and blues
with cuts and a torn soul...
When you drift across my mind
i fall numb and void...
You turn me sour from the inside out...
Please my baby break me down,
make me kiss the ground....
Do it now....
Then love me forever
In that special way
like only you can do...